My dear friends

It has been a while since I posted a blog, and this one is completely different to the ones I have posted to date.  I recently found myself to be single again, which I might add came as a huge shock to me.  You see, I was single for 8 years after my last relationship.  I was initially scared of entering into another relationship, but though what is the worst that could happen?  Much to my shock and surprise, this one hurt more that all the others combined.  It is drastically affecting the way I perceive life, love and companionship.  At the tender age of 34, I feel that I am not meant to be loved and that I should spend my life alone.  I don’t want to meet a ‘special person’ again, as I don’t want to get hurt again.

I know this is quite strange coming from a man, but the truth is, as a musician and artist, I believe I am more in touch with my emotions, therefore I feel more intensely.  It just begs the question, what have I done that was so horrible that I have to continue getting hurt?  Have I offended the universe in an action or combination of actions to such an extent that I am not worthy of love?  If only I had all the answers, life would be so simple.

With this it might be some time before I post another blog, and I sincerely apologise for it, as there are so many people who have gained insight and wisdom from what I was able to share.  I will however keep you posted on my progress.  For now I am focussing all my energy and commitment to my career.  At least there I don’t run the risk of getting shattered again.